Saturday, March 31, 2007

Akademi Fantasia

So now it is already AF5. I didn't follow the Prelude Concert, and by the time I knew it, there were already 4 kicked. Sweet..

Tonight, along with Maulidur Rasul, they invited Mawi and Nazri of ex Raihan to come over and celebrate. I thought it was nice, to be reminiscing of home and the way we celebrated with the orang masjid with pulut and ayam rendang.

I notice that the non Moslem girl was taken out when Nazri did his usrah and Mawi sang his nasyid songs. I would do the same, requested to be taken out if someone preached about their religion. Or else the parents will go mad the next day.

Oh ya.. I think I personally loved Ogy. She is, as always, over reacing but she is straight forward, sincere and didn't use words like Simon Cowell's " just out from the jungle" "unbelievably horrible".

Am I That Visibly Fat?

I was dumbfounded at a family gathering when The Man's cousin touched my hips and commented that I should lose some, before my second pregnancy.
Another reason why I hate family gathering.

I decided to list down the people who have told me that I am fat:
Ida: Once, Sob commented something on me in a positive way, I was so sure it was the way I combed my hair, and she bluntly laughed it off and said I was fat. Fat is exactly the word she used. She also made remark on all the clothes I wore practically every day.
Baie: He now called me by the name Sponge Bob.He dashed in the room and shrieked, "Mana Sponge Bob?" whenever I was not there.
The Man's Cousin, Ayu, who Did My Wrought Iron Gate and Messed the Color: Brilliantly gave me the ideas to lose some weight before pregnancy. Err. She was also the same girl who commented how fat I when Azeuchry was inside my womb. Can't blame her though. She is an Olive Oil, the Popeye's Girlfriend.
Alang: Who else would pinch my cheeck but her everytime we come home?
Raymond: He kindly didn't say it in front of me, but in front of Ida who made it the joke of the week.
Bakar and the bunch of guys from Bin Power: They thought I was pregnant and kindly said congratulations. Blluuhhh

There are also people who never said that I am fat:
Of course The Man: He however supported me everytime I announced that I am to go on diet.
Alfifa: She realized that I gained weight but never said it out loud. She even encouraged me to go on diet just after I mentioned it.
Syima: A good friend never said it out loud. She is just the one.
Yan: Went down to JB to see her but she didn't say a word. Perhaps because she is, too. *Sigh*

I fumbled upon what Ayu said and ate the Indomie Goreng The Man just made. Slurpp... and now is 11:00 p.m.


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Friday, March 30, 2007

My Will

A few had commented on why did I write such thin in my previous entry , My Will.

Thing is, I don’t know what triggered me.

It could be the palm.

I know it is wrong to believe the palm reading. My palm was read when I was 15 by a Chinese karate-do friend. It is said that I didn’t live long.

Recently, my palm was read by an Indian palm reader. (that sounds like PDA). She was shocked to see that I am still alive to now. She said that according to the lines, I should have gone when I was 28.

I didn’t believe in those two. Yet,, didn’t it occur to you that you could go when you are 28. What’ll you do if you know?

It could be the organ donor.

I am arranging an organ donor campaign, which specify that your organs will be disseminated to those who is in much need. So, what if I go now? Will they delay my funeral ? what’ll The Man feel knowing that he should wait for my organs to be distributed to bury me?

It could be the prayers answered.

Early this year, I prayed hard to Almighty that He’ll show me sign that I need to feel closer to Him. Perhaps, this is the sign. Perhaps, by thinking of death made me think of Him more.

It could be ‘the friend’.

You see, I had a friend whom I really treasured but work in a ‘competing division’. ‘Competing’ is not really the word but if I reveal more, he’ll know. He is one of who I respect most for his wit, his generosity , the one who introduced me to blogging. He has been complaining about his boss, who have been kicking around unpleasantly. We both agreed that the boss is an arse, until recently he turned his back on me and join his boss kicking us. I couldn’t just believe it. I couldn’t deny that I feel that I am backstabbed. I couldn’t. I don’t know why, but it hurts me deep now that he has done it. Least thing I could do is believing that he knows what he is doing. So what is that get to do with dying? Thing is, that really put me down, I feel so disappointed to the points that I nearly cried. Perhaps my mengada self was thinking that if I die, will he know that he has made me sad?

Okay. Enough reasons.

Thinking about it, when we were in boarding school, everytime we were about to go home for semester break, everytime that I wait for the 5:30 bus to come and pick us to Puduraya, I will always think that how if I die on road? Thus, you may find a letter in my locker to my family and friends, saying how sorry and much I love them, that little things they do for me are valuable. Two reasons : One I really believed that I might die on the road. Second, the whole hostel seemed so quiet when everybody has gone home except for the North and East students. The whole quietness always seemed to bring my thought to death.

I know a few of you do not like it when my blogs seems gloomy. You guys like funny stories, the cutu things that little boy did, the hot gossip, the bitching.

We’ll have a lot more than that.

Monday, March 26, 2007

My Will

Don't know why but I feel that I must have a will written. Not excatly a will but something that will prepare The Man if I am gone suddenly.
Why not gone suddenly? Roslan passed away a week before his wedding. Roslina passed away about four days before Aidilfitri.
I just pray that mine will be quick and peaceful, that I will go without much trouble to people around me.
Material wise, I have two insurance. One shall cover my Mak Lang's medical expense. Another one is Azeuchry Education Fund.
My saving is only in ASB, which I believe will fall under Abang's care. After settling some of my debts, if there's any, it should be divided to four, to be distributed evenly to Arris, Yan, Ida and Azeuchry.
Azeuchry has an account at Tabung Haji. Abang should dedicate each month to this account.
My KWSP is 50 Mak and 50 Abang. I think so.
My car is for Arris, should Hamdan is back and want to use his car back. Meanwhile, Ida or Yan can use them.
My jewelleries are not much. Half of it is Abang's gift, which abang can decide whether to give to either of my or your sister, or keep for your next baby girl. Except for my wedding ring, which shall be passed down as Engagement ring for Azeuchry when he wants to propose to the girl he loves one day. Of course, the name can be erased...
Those that are not abang's gift, shall be passed to Mak, she'll know what to do. Except for my newest pair of earing, can you pass it down to Yan at JB for Yana when she grew up. Yan has one pair too.
My perfume bottles, if there 're much in it, shall be passed down to Kak Ida. She is fanatic when it comes to perfume.
All my make up shall be passed to either Yan, Ida (like they need it!) or ena and kana at work.
It is important that all of my items are discarded. Most importantly are the clothes. The kurungs and scarves can be passed down to my sisters and Jaja. All of other clothings must be discarded, thrown away or given away, inclusive of shoes. It is important, abang, that you get the wardrobe cleared. Trust me that you won't feel like doing it, but the sooner you do , the better it is for you. Please promise me that you'll clear things out.
I have a few possession which are others. Books (lit chic) are all Dayang's. Please return to her with a bunch of lilies.
Some have owed me RMs. Please just halalkan for them.

Please promise me that you'll take Azeuchry back home to my parents. When he know what school is and what flag is, please ask Apak to take him to my old school and show him the flag pole. Ask Apak to tell him a story about me and the flag.

There's another picnic spot , Lawin, that I never got chance to bring you. Please go whenever you can. It's different from Lata Kekabu but you'll enjoy it. :)

And abang, do whatever you want to do at the house. I am no longer there to stop you from doing anything, then you shouldn't stop yourself from doing things that you have always wanted to do, like buying the carpets you like. But one thing, please keep the garden clean and tidy. It's one place the we both build together and it is my favorite place. You may wanna rearrange the plants or discard some but promise that there'll be grass, always. Do not be afraid to move to a new house, if you want to do so. I shall not be mad or anything. It has been a life we shared, now that I am no longer a part of it, why should I refrain you from doing anything else.

Azeuchry should not be forced to remember me, but when he is big enough to say prayer, please teach him how to say a prayer to me, so that all my sins will be forgiven. Only his prayers are answered, other than my amal jariah and ilmu yang berguna , which I don't have much.

One day Azuechry will get to confusion, that he is suppossed to remember this woman called Mommy but he couldn't remember any part of the past about her, tell him not to worry. That it is okay for him not to remember me. I just want him to be happy, and seek no entanglement from him. There are few movies that I want him to watch, Stepmom and Cinta. I'll come out with a few list if I have sometime.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Keep In Touch Your Arse

My new resolution was to spend one lunch time (Friday, most probably) calling up all good long-distanced girlfriends. Especially my school friends whom I adored to bits.

So I called the best friend, Yan. Apparently her lunch time is over and she had to go into a meeting.

Then, Ajin. Another good friend. She answered the phone and said that she can’t talk, saying it was so noisy there.

Then, Syima. Line was busy.

I fumed furiously. Here I was trying to keep in touch with them and time had just not permitted me to do so. Especially Ajin. I have not talked to her for ages.

Then, The Man called.

Obviously he is the only one available. &siiighhhhhhhh&

Then I tried out my uni friends.

Edina was busy getting out from the house back to the office.

Jiji didn’t pick up. Like always. (but she did though when The Man was down with then-suspected-dengue)

I dared not try calling the others. Dared not hurting myself.

Braved myself to call Mariah. She picked up but was on the way to see her mom in law at Kuantan Hospital and before I could ask her whether I could listen to her baby’s voice, we got cut off. She texted saying that the battery was running out.

See.

Thing is, lunch is the only good time. My attention is 100% for Azeuchry each time we got home.

As I reach 30 this year, it is harder keeping in touch with them. If I knew this, I won’t be signing off their year books with ‘Keep in touch ya!’. Perhaps I would just write ‘Don’t grow. Stay with me’.




Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Trusting Nation

Dear all,

I have distributed your EA and the PCB statement. This will be your copy. I have made copies for your P files.Your Borang B has to be submitted by 30th April 2007. You do not have to attach your EA and the PCB while submitting your Borang B. However, if the LHDN requests, you will have to send it to them later.

That note was passed around together with my EA and PCB statement. I liked reading it. I liked it that our nation has moved a level higher. We have moved from a ‘suspicious nation’ to a ‘trusting nation’, which is good because the more you trust the people, the more people will become civilized.

When I was at the State, everything was about trusting people and surprisingly, people never abuse them. They put in coins into the box and pull out the door, yet they still take only one copy instead of the whole box. Typical Malaysian will take one copy for themselves and four other copies for the roommates.

They order a large Fizzy Drink at Fizoli’s for each of the family members, who has free refill. Typical Malaysian will order a small Fizzy Drink and share it with the rest of the group of 10.

They never cheat filling up the IRB (tax) form and yet the IRB never comes around to audit each one of them. They picked the audit randomly. You see, the more you put your trust in people, the blooming their attitude will be. At least, I believe so. Oh yeah.


Friday, March 16, 2007

Issey Miyaki

So, I got a few calls today on the Issey Miyaki and how can I bought the wrong perfume.
(You guys never leave me alone!)

Here how it goes.

I went to Isetan with only two choices in mind, CK Escape and Lancome's Miracle. Worn both before and loved it because.
1. When I wore them, I could smell them
2. When I wore them, people could smell them and compliment me
3. All the tops still smell of them before washing.

So, that's my definition of good perfume.

When I was Isetan, anyway, was still thinking that perhaps I could venture out new smell. Then there came the Issey Miyake. The 'Leau D'Issey', was sprayed to the tiny paper and I thought , it smelt of bunga kubur! The 'Drop of Pearl on Petal' smelt good anyway on paper. So I bought the later, cost me RM320, of a 100ml. I was given, as well, a miniature of Leau D'Issey. Which I wore the next day on my neck.

And the blouse smelled sooooo bloody good, even two days later!

So you see, what you sniffed on that small piece of paper lies. And it lies to you a lot.

My Drop of Pearl on Petal is going at RM100.00. Any taker?




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Thursday, March 15, 2007

Mid March Jot

This is the list of major things happening in Clipperseep’s Life :

I have bought an Issey Miyake’s perfume, which smells nice on my wrist, and after ‘it’ll stick to your blouse even after two days’ remark by the sales half-man half-woman, I bought a 100ml bottle costs RM340 something, I found out that the one that smells nice even after two days was not the one I bought! I bought a ‘A Drop of Pearl in Petal’ something and not ‘Leau d’Issey’. Stupid!

I don’t really like blogging on my word document and pasted it then to Blogspot.

Coming back to the perfume, I really need one good one. This is the list of what I wanted: 1. CK Escape (wore that before, loved it!) 2. Lancome’s Miracle (loved it). I had the two in my mind when I roamed Isetan and why did I go back home taking the wrong one?

Why is it that buying a unique perfume that nobody wears at work matter?

My bestfriend, who is married with two kids is having a huge crush with someone at work and the whole story of hers is making me nauseatic. But, I have to be supportive and understanding. One thing about her and the husband now is there are having a serious communication problem. She doesn’t feel that she is supported at work and he feels that she constantly needs attention. Where she then choose to smile back to the guy has been flirting with her for ages. The guy had two kids too. Oh God.. please drag yan back on track.

My husband is a physically attractive man. And he needs a Caroline Herera perfume, for now. I am so proud of him that he has finally finished up two bottles of perfume after 5 years.

Work is fine. In fact, a stalled project is moving forward. Accelerating, shall I say.

Azeuchry ‘s favorite book now is Old Tree Stump and he now watches everything in PHDC Ch 63.

My favorite series is still Grey’s but I missed this week episode. The Man’s favorite is now Heroes which I think have too many cast.