My Will

Don't know why but I feel that I must have a will written. Not excatly a will but something that will prepare The Man if I am gone suddenly.
Why not gone suddenly? Roslan passed away a week before his wedding. Roslina passed away about four days before Aidilfitri.
I just pray that mine will be quick and peaceful, that I will go without much trouble to people around me.
Material wise, I have two insurance. One shall cover my Mak Lang's medical expense. Another one is Azeuchry Education Fund.
My saving is only in ASB, which I believe will fall under Abang's care. After settling some of my debts, if there's any, it should be divided to four, to be distributed evenly to Arris, Yan, Ida and Azeuchry.
Azeuchry has an account at Tabung Haji. Abang should dedicate each month to this account.
My KWSP is 50 Mak and 50 Abang. I think so.
My car is for Arris, should Hamdan is back and want to use his car back. Meanwhile, Ida or Yan can use them.
My jewelleries are not much. Half of it is Abang's gift, which abang can decide whether to give to either of my or your sister, or keep for your next baby girl. Except for my wedding ring, which shall be passed down as Engagement ring for Azeuchry when he wants to propose to the girl he loves one day. Of course, the name can be erased...
Those that are not abang's gift, shall be passed to Mak, she'll know what to do. Except for my newest pair of earing, can you pass it down to Yan at JB for Yana when she grew up. Yan has one pair too.
My perfume bottles, if there 're much in it, shall be passed down to Kak Ida. She is fanatic when it comes to perfume.
All my make up shall be passed to either Yan, Ida (like they need it!) or ena and kana at work.
It is important that all of my items are discarded. Most importantly are the clothes. The kurungs and scarves can be passed down to my sisters and Jaja. All of other clothings must be discarded, thrown away or given away, inclusive of shoes. It is important, abang, that you get the wardrobe cleared. Trust me that you won't feel like doing it, but the sooner you do , the better it is for you. Please promise me that you'll clear things out.
I have a few possession which are others. Books (lit chic) are all Dayang's. Please return to her with a bunch of lilies.
Some have owed me RMs. Please just halalkan for them.

Please promise me that you'll take Azeuchry back home to my parents. When he know what school is and what flag is, please ask Apak to take him to my old school and show him the flag pole. Ask Apak to tell him a story about me and the flag.

There's another picnic spot , Lawin, that I never got chance to bring you. Please go whenever you can. It's different from Lata Kekabu but you'll enjoy it. :)

And abang, do whatever you want to do at the house. I am no longer there to stop you from doing anything, then you shouldn't stop yourself from doing things that you have always wanted to do, like buying the carpets you like. But one thing, please keep the garden clean and tidy. It's one place the we both build together and it is my favorite place. You may wanna rearrange the plants or discard some but promise that there'll be grass, always. Do not be afraid to move to a new house, if you want to do so. I shall not be mad or anything. It has been a life we shared, now that I am no longer a part of it, why should I refrain you from doing anything else.

Azeuchry should not be forced to remember me, but when he is big enough to say prayer, please teach him how to say a prayer to me, so that all my sins will be forgiven. Only his prayers are answered, other than my amal jariah and ilmu yang berguna , which I don't have much.

One day Azuechry will get to confusion, that he is suppossed to remember this woman called Mommy but he couldn't remember any part of the past about her, tell him not to worry. That it is okay for him not to remember me. I just want him to be happy, and seek no entanglement from him. There are few movies that I want him to watch, Stepmom and Cinta. I'll come out with a few list if I have sometime.