New Yeah!

New Year passed me by.

Time has really passed me by, leaving me hunting them like ghost. In between moving house, wedding anniversary, Raya Haji, Hamdan leaving for Perth, and kenduri doa selamat time really flew through my whole body cells.

I am still adjusting to the long distance traveling and the early morning wakey session. The Kiddo enjoys the morning traveling, it seems. He opens up his eyes every time we carried him down and starts pointing to cars and lights and towers. Ugghh.. imagine that in the weekends.

The Man and I had a great anniversary celebration. We managed to send the Kiddo away and skipped to the nearest hotel for a dinner for two at Equtorial Hotel, Bangi who served us smashed glass (which they claim plastic) in the mashed potatoes. I got him a Tag Heuer and he got me a nice bracelet with white, red and yellow gold from GoldHeart. He also bought a pair of matching towel for both me and him. I think that’s sweet.

So the New Year really passed me.

People, in and off air were talking about Azam (Resolutions) for the New Year and I jokingly said that I have a great one (the Kiddo’s First name is Azam). As a matter of fact, I try so hard to find some quite time to think about it. I always take some time off for myself to first reflect on the achievement of last year and what more can I improve for the next year. Surprisingly, the time wasn’t on my side this year.

So I’ll do another way round.

Let’s first list on what have I achieved and not last year.

I managed to move house! That is a tough job, man, with the Man trying to possibly bring all things together and keep re-assessing the garbage I’ve thrown.
I managed to, shall I say, successfully guided the three new execs in the Operation Room. They are all fast learners and I am very proud of them. What I didn’t manage is to get the Manager’s tasks rolled down to them. Will tackle that this year.
I didn’t manage to lose weight. I did lose some and gain back.
I patched up with previously-known-as-Miz-Anoi. The whole office seems more bright and positive. It didn’t mean we are close as buddies, but we are okay, working together. I started to see her contribution to the team.
I got through the hard times of facing the Financial Year Audit. I stood by the Finance, however painful they are.
Three large debtors settled their outstanding which has accumulated since 2000. Two more are being chased. Will tackle that this year.
My hair is finally tamed eventhough I missed the curls. It is a lot more softer and easier to handle. My face, however, is getting over-reacting to sun, UV as well as soap. Will get the face treated this year.
This is the roughest year so far with The Man. He had just been promoted and has been super busy. I had sometimes felt neglected and ignored. We had some rows. There were few occasions where he went out-station and I didn’t even try to budge or say no. Didn’t miss him when he was away. But we did sit down and talk about it. I’ve learnt that it takes effort to keep the love burning and it takes a lot more effort to rekindle. I’ve also learnt that if I go for a few days without saying I love yous or hugging him, the next time I wanted to do or say something romantics, it’d feel weirdly odd and funny.



Then what I want:

I want more time in a day. I want to spend time blogging in the mornings, meditation at nights. I want to spend time putting Kiddo to sleep and get back to my own work, reading books or listening to great music.
I want to perform solah with the feelings of really close to Him. Some says, manis beribadah. You know, like when we fall in love with a guy, (preferably your husband), how we think of him whenever we go, and we crazily wrote his names on the note books, I want to be feeling the same kinda of love, if not more special, to Him. I don’t wanna perform Solah blindly, like they say tonggeng terbalik, days and nights but not getting the juice of it. I don’t know, this might sounds crazy, after all these years of sembahyang, chants are just chants. I wanna get deeper.
I want to read more books, mostly romance.
I want to have more sex. It’s odd that the noon after I put this thought on writing, someone told me that women at the age of 30-35 have the highest intensity of wanting sex a.k.a. the horniest. I guess so.
I wanna hang out with good friends and listen to good live music. And most importantly, I want the Man to be there too.
I want to have more time talking to the Man.
I want to start teaching the Kiddo stuffs like abc and 123 and nursery rhymes.
I want to conceive. I want a girl but another boy is fine too.
I want to keep the house clean and tidy, always. I want every inch of the house to be livable and
I want to cook more for the Man and the Kiddo.
I want the Operation becomes much simpler and organized. I want the Customers to understand the Market and the Industry more and oblige the Contractual terms. I want to be wiser with have much patience with them. I realize that the work load this year will be more on the long-term projects thus I gotta be more disciplined in allocating time each day in getting a bit of it done day by day instead of concentrating on the urgent tasks like when I was in the Operation. I also realize that most of the tasks unloaded to me will be connected with pushing others to produce results, I just hope that my leadership qualities shine through.
Oh wtf, yes, I hope to lose a few more kgs. Most of the bras are no longer comfortable, I constantly have bruises whenever I got my period, my feet hurt when I stand for too long either cooking or cleaning up or shopping, waist band of most pants cut me whenever I sit. Losing weight is now for comfort , no longer for beauty.
I want to spend time in the morning more on getting ready. I wanna appear at work with clean and pressed suits, smart and crispy with make-ups on.

Thus, the Resolutions for Year 2007 shall be around that.

Happy New Year!