My English is Standard 4.

Have you ever felt that you are so good at something (compared to your peers) and then suddenly you feel that the improvement graph goes horizontally straight to your right for long damn five years?

I do.

Was reading Lothloriendor blogspot which I enjoyed so much and SOBRI was right, we even have to turn the dictionaries pages when reading her entries. Her words are magically chosen, even the story about her breastfeeding or breastmilk expressing (this woman is really a breast woman, y'all!) are written with words I have to flip over between the dictionary's pages. *note to self, to buy pocket dictionaries, the one I have installed in my O2 mini is useless*

I was like the GODDESS of English at school. Was among the four English debaters, never scored other than A1 during 6 + 5 years of schooling. Muaz of course came along the debating team with his dictionary brain to help along but mine, was I good!

Start mixing with the Non Malays during Uniten then went to the States and I could pronounce water as wa'der, mechanics as meeee'kanik!, Indiana as indiieeyaaahna, Indianapolis as indiieeyiaanaplez, Bruce Willis as Bruce wilez. Then I could swear in English. *thought that's the coolest part*

Then, reading my blog entries again, all I can see is similar words being repeated over and over again. Words a Standard 4 can understand. No!! I don't want this. I want to write like Kalimullah Hassan, Marina Mahathir, Rafidah Abdullah of 3R and yes, yes, yes, Lothloriendor (damn, that woman read as much as I do!). I want people to scramble upon dictionary when they read my blog.

Could be because I am in the shipping industry where words spoken are short and less flamboyant? (have to pause for a full one minute to see whether flamboyant is really the word?)
This is how I usually write my email, asf pls find the vsl full dtls which eta is 2 april iagw wp.(as follow, please find the vessel full details which estimated time of arrival is 2 april if all goes well weather permitted).

Have I stopped pick up a new word of the day and tried using it in writing or speaking? Like the Standard 4 Clipperseep about 20 years ago.

Maybe I should start the old habit kicked in again.