Points to ponder.

Have you ever had this so much respect and admiration on somebody who could be so efficient and/or so smart and/or passionate about his/her work that you are overwhelmed of that much respect and admire until you don't know what you are truly feeling for him/her? You can't define what you're feeling but you find yourself constantly thinking of that somebody, whether you have seen him/her today or what that somebody will do if he/she is in your shoes? You start feeling kinda a weird thing going in your system and you still find the way the define the damn feeling. Is it respect? Is it GREAT admiration? Is it a crush or is it love?? (Yes, darlings, the big L)

When your mind has crossed the thought of that big L thing, then you start feeling guilty for she/he is already married with two kids, and you are dating the greatest woman/man on earth and she/he could be your boss/co-worker whom trust you so much/subordinates or WORSE she/he could be dating one of your greatest and closest bestfriend. Then you started having him/her as the main character in your dreams that left you feeling guilty everytime you woke up. After that, you started thinking on what IF you and her/him met earlier before you guys are involved in anybody else. Then, for the whole night, you kept staring at your partner's sweet soft face in bed, feeling guilty of what you are feeling towards that somebody else. You shook your head (hard) and tried to pull yourself together.

Then you start to ponder, whether you are gay to be feeling that kind of thing towards the same gender? (laughing hysterically!)

Still you peep thru your window to see whethe she/he is in the office today!