Day 12

day 12 and barulah boleh saya mengupdate blogku ini dengan news that baby adam zulkarnain is finally and safely delivered. Weight was 3.61 kg and i did it without epidural... Hahaha.. Alamak baby dah uk ak uk ak... Gotta go

41-week

Went for my ob/gyn check up last Friday when I was 39-w-1-d. She said the baby's head is not yet enganged (into the birth canal i assume) therefore if mom can carry without much difficulty, she'll wait until 41-week.

Wow.. 41 weeks. that'll mean about 3 months away from work.

I never did this without the feeling of guilt and sin.

But i did this, anyway!

Yay!

Gratitude

I am also grateful for those who have prayed for me and those who have given me the kindest words, those who have not shut me down and let me cry over things, those who listen.

Those who understands.

Those who are true friends.

Thanks.

Responsibility

As a blogger, i have the responsibility to update the blog whenever a problem is solved, so that readers won't feel that this blog is all about negativity, problems and cursing.

So, here it is.

The recent test result came out negative. I am a negative strep B virus now! Alhamdullilah praise to Allah the healer and the kindest.

After two more weeks waiting, the ob/gyn today confirmed that IT's ALL GONE! HOwever, for precaution, she'll put me on antibiotic treatment during labor. From what I read, I am still a carrier, it's just that the virus is temporarily fought off.

We also saw Anna's paed (which might be Little Adam/Ali paed as well or not) and was told that the baby might or might not get it. The Man shook his head and said, it didn't mean anything! We asked (this is actually a conversation outside an elevator, not really a consultation session in his room) whether he might want to treat the baby on IV drip of antibiotic, he said with a look like mulling over on whether clueless or telling the parents the truth, maybe yes or maybe not, depending on how the baby responded after it is delivered.

So there are more than one school of thoughts on how the virus is affecting the baby during labor. I can read on and research more, few doctors we met, specialist or not gave different opinion. An ob/gyn at newzealand said if the virus is found in the urine traces, it means that the population is bigger rather than if it is found in a vaginal swab. Which makes sense.

Conclusively, there is no standard treatment since the effect of the virus to the newborn varies.

HOwever, if 30% of the death of the newborn due to lung disorder is caused by this virus (well, gotta think, which site i found said this huh?) shouldn't this virus appearance in the medical world be much more significant than this? People in UK is signing petition urging the hospital to start testing preggy moms on this Virus. My ob/gyn is saying its airborne and its becoming much common now.What caused it to resurfaced in a Mom's body? Low immunity ? Stress level ?

Is it the same case as the virus causing chicken pox that resurface as Herpes Zoster whenever one's immunity is low due to stress level?

So many questions unanswered. Macam x Files lah pulookk..

Whatever the treatment is for my newborn, i believe that it will be born safely. I'm praying for the best, 24 hours monitoring and we can go home. Amin.

Do'a Mommy

Mommy doa semua anak mommy sihat.
Yang telah tengok dunia
Atau pun yang akan lihat dunia.

Mommy doa mommy ada kekuatan untuk bimbing semua
Untuk sayang semua
Untuk selalu ada

Mommy doa mommy selalu diperingatkan
Bahawa anak anak mommy yang wajib didahulukan
sekiranya mommy alpa

Mommy doa anak anak mommy selalu ada masa
untuk selalu bersama sama
suka atau airmata

Jadi sekiranya katil king sized bed ini terlalu kecik
untuk kita semua berhimpit
satu hari kita akan tidur atas lantai!