I'm just surprised to see how lonely one could be whilst being in a large group...
I know that when the thoughts wonder around and keep landing on one particular issue or person, suddenly your life becomes purposeful. you'd feel lonely but those thoughts would gave you a warm feeling indeed
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Sometimes i feel...
This seldom happens. Yes i am a human.
I feel like vanishing into thin air. I feel like there are too much expectations of me and I am supposed to stand strong anchoring every one else.
I am done of thinking that I am the victim, that i have always to keep cleaning other people's mess(es). I am over that. I have accepted that as challenges and embraced through the errors to get them corrected.
However I am defeated by the various audits done, endless queries to be answered, piles of documents to sift through. For now I am defeated and feel like running away from here.
There is a place I long to be and its in his arms...
I feel like vanishing into thin air. I feel like there are too much expectations of me and I am supposed to stand strong anchoring every one else.
I am done of thinking that I am the victim, that i have always to keep cleaning other people's mess(es). I am over that. I have accepted that as challenges and embraced through the errors to get them corrected.
However I am defeated by the various audits done, endless queries to be answered, piles of documents to sift through. For now I am defeated and feel like running away from here.
There is a place I long to be and its in his arms...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Deleted
I've deleted the entry about work and the procurement thingy.
Turned out to be that I am no longer mad.
It is destined that my work is such.
It requires high integrity, mistake-free.
So that is what I am paid for.
No need to compare the Money I'm getting with those who duduk goyang kaki (sit down and yak all day).
No need to compare the fact that I am the only Manager whose room has no door, and people would walk in freely while I am breast-expressing.
The satisfaction is in the job itself.
It is satisfying to see the process I created evolved, to see the time cut to do the same amount of things.
Turned out to be that I am no longer mad.
It is destined that my work is such.
It requires high integrity, mistake-free.
So that is what I am paid for.
No need to compare the Money I'm getting with those who duduk goyang kaki (sit down and yak all day).
No need to compare the fact that I am the only Manager whose room has no door, and people would walk in freely while I am breast-expressing.
The satisfaction is in the job itself.
It is satisfying to see the process I created evolved, to see the time cut to do the same amount of things.
Monday, February 02, 2009
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