A Hero In My Sky

So, JFC is finally transferred, he'll be at the new department for a few months before he finally retired. The new department, is apparently, more like a Cold Storage, the kind of department where people create to place people whom are no longer needed.

We knew that he won't be given a proper retirement party. We then decided to throw him a hi-tea, which was last Friday.

It was indeed, a good one.

Firstly, me and The Man had been working on two weekends on getting the pictures converted into video file, zooming out or in, then The Man cracked his head in getting the whole video files into one movie. We added Evanescene's My Immortal and My Chemical Romance's Cancer. I cried many times, even when choosing the song.

So the video started with his name and titled, A Hero in Our Skies. What was his achievement, his passion (mountain climbing and all the other outdoor activities), the team building activities (Jeram Besu, Sungai Perak). What he is known to us, a person who inspired a balanced life i.e. he is the first MD who introduced Personal Goals in KPI, you declared what you’ll achieve personally in that year and rated yourself at the end of Fiscal Year. Then I had each of our photos, including the one that had moved out, with what their think of him, some of us didn’t need the opinion statement to be printed out next to their pixture, I put Baie as the person who holds the fort when JFC was in trouble.

Then, he gave his speech. First he thanked us for the video, he said as usual I never fail to made him cry. Then he talked about what was his journey in the organization (told you, he knew there’ll be no retirement party for him, thus he took this opportunity), he even thank the organization for letting him grow. Then he mentioned a few names that has made this subsidiary, the first MD, the Lady Manager who was efficient and somehow set the working culture here, Baie and Nooras for being knowledgable, and surprisingly, my name. He mentioned that I am the soul of the company. I laughed.

The he talked about the long, painful Domestic Inquiry. He mentioned the names that worked for him, days and nights and again, my name being mentioned again. He paused, many times, before the reservoir broke. Many of us broke, too. Even the guys. He cried, and said, “Clipperseep, I don’t intend to embarrass you but your tears are actually your strength”.

We cried.

Then we ate, the Singgahsana’s laksa was divine. We took picture, which then The Man came to become the photographer. Towads the end, each one of us lined up and shook the departing MD’s hands. We hugged and laughed, and it actually felt good to end it with laugh.

As we end our journey in any organization, we will want to end it with high note. Don’t think this is the case for JFC. But, personally, I think he had been a good friend, an inspiring leader and a strong soul. He has taught me many things that life offered.

Good bye JFC. You are a hero in my sky.

Growing Old and Growing Wiser

These are among the events Clipperseep remembers that made me wiser:

• The fight with Lynn. Eventhough she started it, eventhough she was the one who came in and stormed right to my face, I always believe that if I didn't yell back, she will still be talking to me. I've learnt to control my anger, to remain calm and to just listen to the opinions offered. That was why when an old clerk, the then-Mizanoi came right to charging me stuffs, I remained calm.
• Along's death. I've learnt that chemo hurts, and it hurts the people around too. I've experienced of being helpless seeing someone who has done much to you suffering in pain. That was why when Ikram, Jiji's brother was sick, I couldn't bear to just go there and talk to her. She was in much pain, just like the brother's.
• Amat. I've learnt that friendship between two men can be broken over a girl. The girl was me. I sometimes wondering what'd happened if I chose Amat over Nizam. Would I end up with the Man, too, whom I met after I left Nizam?
• Ever-controlling Alang. I've learnt that I can't help my mom much if she choose not to do anything with the situation. That my role is just there to listen, not to improvise things. That's why when Yan came over me telling how she has fallen in love with someone else, I choose just to listen. And listening, I am, until now.
• Joe-whom-didn't-watch-his-back: I've learnt a lot. First, you can only knew the true friends once you are in deep shit. Second, the friends who still love you will be very much 'panas telinga' when people keep talking about you and your fault (by this I mean the Finance and Audit people, so that I will not be misunderstood). Third, if you hang on to God, you'll be safe.

These are among the major events, from 1997 up to 2007.

Feathers

A famous story goes like this.

A girl has told rumours about many people to different many many people.
She then was asked to carry a bag full of feathers and place the feathers in front of everyone's door. Like the rumours she used to tell, she obediently place the feathers at all the doors.
She then was asked to collect all the feathers.
When she came back, all the feathers were already gone, swept by the air, passed from other door to other door, stuck to anyone's shoes and brought over to other town.

Just like rumours, or wrong perception. It gets to all people. By the time you knew that you have spread the lies, it was already too late. No professional damage control can be done. No more.

I am reminding myself to always check the source before spreading the rumours.

Farewell CD

The Man did one for Sob's before.

Joe's farewell party is coming soon. So, we've spent last weekend going through each pictures to make a the farewell video.

Songs we choose are:
firstly, My Immortal by Evanescene.
then, Cancer by My Chemical Romance.

Cancer, I think, best described my feelings towards what's going on.

It was written about a guy who's dying of cancer, where the hairs have abandoned his body, and his body was soggy from chemo (n, a long enduring pain, forcing someone to go through the pain knowing that it might not work at the end).

"The hardest part of this is leaving you"

Boy and Girl Conversation

Girl: Gosh! The washing machine just doesn't work. The oil was too oily. I got pimples. The newspaper was rained on. The boss doesn't see me. I was invisible. The CD player was broken. The car started making noise.

Boy: *listen hard*

Few minutes later.

Girl: *lying down, tired face, hardly smile*

Boy: Why Girl? Something bothering you? Are you tired

Ughh!!!!!!

Clipperseep is listening to:
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Tercipta Untukku

(Yan's current lovesick song. I, on the other hand, really think the piano arrangement is excellent)

by Ungu

Menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu

Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku

Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku


Banyak kata yang tak mampuku ungkapkan

Kepada diriku

*violin here*
Aku ingin engkau selalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Di setiap langkah

dan meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

*drum only came here*
Aku ingin engkau selalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Di setiap langkah

dan meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

Memo

Dear
all personnel from the departments who think they are better than anybody else in the organization.

I don't care if your job is to find people's fault.

But I am sick if your attitude is to find people's fault!!

C'mon. You carry your heads above your body, smiled arrogantly to people whom you barely know and hissed like a snake when they walk out from the lift. Simply because:

1. you know that their boss had screwed something

2. you assume everybody else in the same department are screwing the organization's rules

3.you think their operation is in the mess, that they are not organized, and they do not know what they are doing.

4.you think their business is easy, that you can do a better job.

5.you don't think they could produce evidences whenever you ask for ones.

6. you don't trust these people. even if they told you that they have donated blood or fought in a war, you would still seek for evidence.

Hello!!! Even the nation is moving to a trusting nation, they no longer need the proof of book receipts and all when submitting income form. We are accusing the Governemnt as slow, full of red tapes and all, but hey.. my organization is worse, man!

'They' have reported that we are formidable, you know. 'They' have reported that there's no one better to do this job but us. 'They', who sit outside of the company. And you, the so called brothers, are so negative. You know what 'they' say, 'they' say that the only thing stopping us from getting the cheapest is because of the red tapes.

You see, if you keep behaving this way, 'they' will ask an equity of our department and we'll be free from all these red tapes.

Just watch this space!

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Weekend

We had a long weekend.

Friday was the first. We spent the day emmm lemme try to remember, at home. I cook sup daging for lunch and a baked macaroni for dinner. I substituted the usual frankfurter with real beef, and added in some asparagus. Bolehlah... the Man liked it, that's the most important.

Saturday was spent at the Man's relative gathering. Needless to say, being called fat said it all.

Sunday was home anyway. We woke up early for aerobic at Tamen Tasik Cempaka, and Azeuchry was a bit cranky. I cook Mee Rebus for lunch (and in bulk so that I can cook for dinner), sent some to Yan at Uniten and watched the torterous (sp?) AF5 concert. The only good vocal I think was si Ebi.

Now, can someone tell me on why didn't Azeuchry afternoon-nap during all these three precious, supposed-to-be-relaxing days?





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