Coming Back to the Game

A friend had decided and repeatedly announced that he'll be abandoning Clipperseep.blogspot. Apparantely he still feel betrayed that I make peace with used-to-be-Miz-Anoi that easy. He said I melted down so fast after all the nasty things occured between me and her just because of one nice email.

As frustrated as I felt about him, I have to respect that everybody is entitled to his/her own opinion. I leave it all to him. He will admit one day that he and I were close not because we share the same experience of being hurt and stabbed by the same people, but because we were there for each other. Hugs were given whenever we needed, we cried together when one of us is hurt and we cooled each other down. Of course, our friendship is more meaningful than just a session sharing the bitterness felt towards one person.

So, I was screaming and so negative yesterday. Mindworks said that everytime you feel that there is no hope for you, that is the time where you start 'asking' (praying) harder. You may start by listing down all the blessings granted to you. It'll calm you down and 'force' your right brain to clear up all the negativities. So here it is:

1. I got two nice tops at Cat Whiskers (the boutique where AmyMastura shops, which explain why all the sizes were mainly M and S. Idiot! Idiot! What do they think of Malaysian women? Famine instead of feminine? Idiot! Ops.. negative thoughts! Yellow card myself!!)

2. The Man insisted of spending time with the Boy after knowing that the Boy was cranky the night before. I love him more each time he shows effort that time is the best remedy of 'lack of love disease' (penyakit kekurangan kasih sayang).

3. The Man constantly giving clues that he is thinking about the anniversary which is a few more days away.

4. The Sister agreed to look after the Boy and I got time to do the laundry and cleaning up the kitchen.

5. The Man and I enjoyed myself for the furniture browsing. We will get some good deals. I found myself the dressing table which I love and it is so cool! We are talking about sliding mirror with hidden compartment. Cool!

6. I found the dark purple curtain finally that will suit the sheer I bought at Macy for the Master Bedroom. Found it at Tewah the Mines and a lot cheaper than Macy's. Fabric is nicer, and unlike Macy, they have stock!

7. There were rumors about the Bonus for this year and believe it or not, I'll get three months!! Yeahoo! Eventhough the share price is dropping but the bonus definitely will help calming myself down.

With the list, I thank God for the opportunities.
Therefore this is the list of things I want to achieve for these coming few days. I play here the EndResultVideo.

1. By this Friday, 15th, (which is tomorrow!) the Contractor will finish up doing the kitchen cabinet and the three wardrobes. The workers have recovered and the woods are dry by now. The wood color is nice and cool. We'll be moving in by Sunday, with the movers and lorry available.

2. BGL will agree to my comment which will be sent by end of this week. The Debit Note will be raised and they'll pay us by end of December.

I program my right brain that these are achievable and I will let the Universe work things out.

Ciao!

Ooops!

It took so long to post. I pasted my best.

Later will come.

CupidWorks

These are some shots I took during a wedding at Ipoh.

I am proudly announcing that this couple met because of me!

See ? There are other reasons God sent me to Earth other than having that fantasy doing it with the Man dressed in Santa Clause in the Elevator of Parkson Grand Subang Jaya. (how come nobody ever request the details of it? helllllo people!!!)

So, It's Been 30 Days..

When I went to Mindworks course 30 days later, they asked me to set two targets and they guarantee (money back) that it will be achieved. Today is the end of the 30 days.

My targets were:
1. To settle the outstanding disputes with three evendors (back from 03 cases) and finally get paid by 13 Dec (today)
2. To lose 5 kgs (from 55 to 50)

Lemme see whether these are achieved
1. Yes, disputes with two vendors have been settled, but money was not in as per yesterday. One vendor has been stubborn, staff taking leaves and such, and I just got their comment back last Thursday, which I was so busy to look at.
2. I still weigh 55kg!

Look what have I done to achieve those two targets:
1. I've chased like a mad woman, sending emails, warning via fax, I even suggested them to come down from Australia and sit with me but 'their company policy' prevents that.
2. None. I cut rice but piled up whenever at in law's or when Mak coming over. Not a single work-out.

But that is besides the points. Mindworks say the 'do' does not matter, what matters is each morning I sit down to do 'My Daily Programming' which is a sort of meditation cum prayers, then each night I do 'My Daily Cleansing' which is a sort of meditation cum relaxing. Lemme see whether I have done these two rigiously.

1. Daily Programming: I did this religiously after coming to the office. I found quite place to do and follow the instruction exactly. I was a bit sloppy during weekends.
2. Daily Cleansing: None. In 30 days, I might have done around 8 or 9 times. It's hard, u know, to find time to do with the boy around.

If I ever go to Mindworks today and ask for the money back, they'll shoot me down. Aghhh!!! The whole ideas are making me wanting to curse like mad!!

So, in Mindworks too, we learnt that there are times that you won't believe it works and you do this yellow card to your own brain. I know this is the moment where the yellow card is supposed to be flashed to my brain but let me be a victim for a while.

The boy has been cranky yesterday. He cried, refused to let me even take a shower.
The sister who stays with me didn't help much either.
The Man was galavantingly having his own bowling night.
The contractor, despite the large sum of deposits we paid, had not done up the kitchen cabinet. So the 'end result' of me going to work from Bangi by 13 Dec washed down the drain.
The house is in the mess, with boxes around.
The Man and I constantly have arguments about the new house: when to move, whether to clean up the floor before or after the contractor doing work, whether it is safe to let the curtain while contractor doing their job (takut lah contractor curi curtain yang senget tu).
My fridge door (yang sebelah ice tu) was giving way.
It is raining almost every day and all the clothings didn't get dry up.
The friend who move to the HQ is behaving so childish-like. Thrown things back to my face, and refused to understand/listen to our problem righ there.
The Man forgot to place my mobile and wallet into my bag today, despite the few minutes I've asked him to temporarily placed them in their wallets.
I didn't get to blog last weekends. The Man was so busy helping the brothers around.

The whole world is against me!

There you go.
Yellow card later.

For now, I have a staff meetinga t 8:15 and let's just kick and scream to some asses.

Beta!

Yeahoo!!

Thanks to beta, now I can blog again from work.

The ever-so-clever IT department has blocked http://blogger.com, I can't edit nor paste anything from the website.

But since changing to Beta, now the web has been changed to http://beta.blogger.com/ and I can blog, again!

With this I thank GOD for the opportunity.

I am Mad

Can someone just respect my space?

Or at least have the courtesy to say sorry for not being able to afford respecting my space.

Seriously

Seriously, I need my own PC, my own internet connection, my own space!

An Itch and Blogging

God! I had so much things to write... now the mind is all filled with anger and frustration. All ideas are gone, it irked me! The feeling that there are so much more to let go yet there are so much limited time / feeling are fucking irritating!

I just need to blog whenever I wanted.

Couldn't it be entertained?

It's just like the itch that can never be scratched! The feeling stays here , and it is just to bothersome.

Do Not

Do not deter me from posting whenever I have the flows of ideas, because
1. the baby will wake up and need the attention
2. the ideas will stop flowing.
3. the mood'll be gone.

Do NOT!